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[10 Nov 2005|06:11pm] |
i know for the fact that i am a phases that he has to go through
i know for the fact that he likes her
i know for the fact that i'm the mother's choices not his
they are meant for each other
he is not for me
neither am i for him
i told him that they are meant for each other
i don't blame anyone
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[02 Nov 2005|08:51am] |
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i feel very lucky....unlike everyone like my classmate my mom understands me.she is totally different from what my classmate's parents are like.i didn't make it through to year 2,and my mom completely understands how come i didn't make it through and she is supportive of any decision that i make.she knew that i had trouble in sch.that i can't cope and that i felt demoralized and question what i was always gd in.she told me its okay if i was to go to the sch i wanted and that she support any decission that i made.she told me that there is no point in going to that sch if i felt that way everyday ,and everyday i have to force myself to go sch.that's not appropriate.she would rather see me going to sch that i don't have to put through an emotional roller coaster.the past two days were very emotional for me.i knew i disapointed myself.....disapointing myself wasn't hard enough i had to disapoint my mom.she means the whole world to me.but i was glad that she understood what i had to go through every day of my life when i went to school.
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[25 Oct 2005|10:02pm] |
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life is unpredictable.but really if it was i would be glad.i have not met the right guy.is there something wrong with me.people around me seem to find the right match.i would want to find that other half that fits in me.but it seem endless.everytime i stumble upon someone they are the wrong ones.its like looking in a hay stacks of needles.or i just looked at the wrong place.i don't wish to wear my heart on my sleeves.i would want someone to love me for who i am and not what i am or what i listen too......i happen to stumble upon someone that loves me for what i listen to,loves me for the sake of the name gf,loves me for the sake that i like him .it was all for the wrong reasons.i would want to paint the world black and white where things are as simple as they can be .i want someone who loves me for me not because of the things that i do.where has all the true love meanings went to.love has lost its meaning on the way to find itself......................
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[19 Oct 2005|11:36pm] |
i just wrote my confession of my life just now and it got lost.
i would want to fall hard
i would want to feel the agony of being apart from u
i would want to meet you one day
i would want to share my life with you
but i guess its not the time yet
i haven't found you yet
you are the illusion of my delusion that i have
i'll just wait around for the melting clock to tick
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